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we live in uncertain times.

but love conquers all, they say.

Man after all

It's turning out to be a rather pleasant year-end after all. Never in my wildest imagination did I think that I would be kind of ok. But I am. I'm two-minded. And I can accept that for now. Twisted. Screwed up. But it feels right and wrong at the same time.

I'm no longer in limbo. What would happen henceforth? Do things stay the same? Or will change inevitably occur. Who dies? Who lives? Who gets to be/remain happy? Surely not me. I will learn to accept that or die trying.

I'm not a bad person. We're not bad people. If we keep telling ourselves that, we might just believe it some day.

A twisted tale.

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Happy. Confused. Drunk. Alone. Scent of a woman. Scent of a man. Hard. Pleasure. Love. LOVE. Clothes. Breathe. Pant. Sleep. Embrace. Suck. Fuck

three

stop mind-fucking, dude. but i can't help it. but i should. be confident, be clear-headed. don't mess up again and again. love the people who love you. tolerate those who don't really. smile. holler. appreciate. love. pray. give more than you receive. live. sacrifice. stay happy.

we live with our choices, or we don't.

memoirs from the mansion

i want to be on holiday, perpetually.
i would like others to interact with me in isolation. it seems better that way.
i want to turn back time to when i was 13. back to when the biggest obstacles to overcome were in the form of examinations, something I was naturally good at.


i want to have it all, or nothing at all.