in limbo no more

gosh. depression really is a black hole.
you can't pull yourself out. no matter how hard you try.

must..keep..trying..

or maybe i should just hang in limbo. like i've been doing for the past 3 years.

or maybe i should just let myself get sucked in. it's just so much easier.

one jump is all it takes.
take a deep breath.
lurge forward.
embrace your destiny.
EMBRACE it.
cos this is all you'll ever be.
it seems.

hong kong.

that i would lock up while in the middle of an email when i see you leaving so that i can bump into you at the lobby.
that i would suit up just so that i'd look sharp when you see me.
that i would lie that i have a long day out on a Sat just so that it would impress you - only to find out that you like quiet weekends.
that i would suddenly feel a weight lifted off after such a brief conversation.

play it cool. but not too cool.
good luck.

it's best to be honest with yourself and others. firstly, it's fair. and secondly, i don't owe it to anyone to be politically correct about anything. i realise that now.

this is what you get, take it or leave it. and i know u'll leave it. it's the easier route, afterall.

which really just proves my point - i don't owe anything to anyone.

to each his own.