life is grey, black and white.

you wake up. and you realise things are different. you ask yourself if you're a monster. you know you aren't. but at some level, you can't help but feel that you are. but you're pretty happy. no, you aren't a monster. you're a victim of circumstances. we all are. you try to justify your happiness. you try to justify your question marks. but you will never be able to. truth is not entirely objective. truth is what you perceive it to be. like it or not, truth, to some extent, is made up of what others perceive it to be. you did this. no you didn't mean to. but you did this. how do you deal with it? do you revel in the undeserved fruit of your non-labor? do you entertain your conscience? do you fight against yourself? do you walk away? do you run away? do you fix it? or do you accept it? do you EMBRACE it? yes you do. it is only right. it is only fair. to all involved. to all involved who matter. who should matter. you are a demon. a demon with a conscience. you are helpless. you have it all together. at times. you must rise above it. it keeps you together. that smile. that touch. that eternal flame. zap them all into vapor. start afresh. be a hero. be unblemished. be unknown. be loved. love. love like never before. love till it hurts. put yourself out there. jump. no, not jump. jump. you've almost made it. ghandi was a pervert it seems. make a difference. to someone. to yourself. forget the hurt. forget about forgetting. simply let go. move on. move away. you are a good person. shut them out. those voices. you are  blessed. and that is why you are where you are. you wake up, and you smile. because it isn't KL no more.